Somewhere around the first Week of January 2012

Hi Mom,

I send this letter with the most of my love and nothing but happiness.

Sorry for it taking so long to write you back, it's really hard to come across paper :( Brandee hasn't been able to put money on my books and you already know my dads answer......

But anyways happy late New Years to you mom. I pray that you had a nice one. :) It was just like any other old day for me tho. Besides we got to watch the ball drop. No biggie but "Happy 2012" My New Year's resolution is to get out of the mess, get a job and give all to my baby!! I can't wait, I'm so fricking excited!!

Brandee told me she sent you a pic? She said the baby was a mean muggin and it's got some big ol' feet.....Yup! That's my baby :) Hahaha, lol anyways if you talk to Ryan tell him I miss him alot and to hurry up and write me cuz I wanna talk to him about some things. Why did he go to Adobe? Do you know what unit he was in?

Oh yeah, so you know Brandee picked that middle name. Hahaha it has nothing to do with the other Nate, lol. I haven't heard form him in years either. I hope you are able to make it down here for the big day. That would mean the world to me and Brandee. :) She goes to her next appointment on January 30th.

Yes I still do my music. But I've passed the stage of writing songs and now kinda perfected the form of freestyle. I wrote a couple of songs a while ago, but thy are for Brandee. One is called "Pretty Girl" and the other is almost done it is called "How far will we go?" "Pretty Girl" still needs work tho.

I just wanted to state real quick mom, that I was just thinking about everyone in my past who always told me something I've done just completely the opposite. You know it's not that I don't listem, it's just that I've always wanted to find out for myself. You know how it is sometime said that you really never know unless you can experience it for yourself. Well I now know what kind of life I will be living if I don't change cuz I've experienced it! And with all this, it's going to make me a better dad! Why? Cuz I've experienced not having a dad. I will no longer feind for drugs. Why? Cuz I experienced what its like not to have your family around and my son or daughter is not going to experience that at all!! I am an active gang member today because of decisions I chose to inflict upon myself. I know it hurts you with all your heart to hear this but at the same time please remember I am a grown man, I make my own decisions and regardless of what I do or who I am, I know you will always love me, you may not respect it! But I ask you to please accept it. Cuz it was my decision and a choice I am still experiencing and that I do not regret with that I am going to end the conversation with saying I am sorry! I know it make you uncomfortable to think about it but is just apart of who I wanna be.....Also just because of I am that, doesn't mean I don't wanna change! I still do and am going to change!! Nothing is going to stop me from being in my babies life and taking care of my baby because I have God on my side and he is all that I need!

Anyways, I know right!! It's crazy thinking I am going to be 20!   Hopefully I will be able to be out on my b-day. If not I guess its just something to grow from and all I can do is hope that I'll be out next year. :D

Well I am extremely tired mom so I'ma go to sleep now but I just wanna let you know that I love you a lot and I am praying for you. I hope you get a job soon too. :)

Love your son,
Taylor

P.N. Tell Chris I love him but am very upset with him..I wish he would have wrote me and that he let me down cuz it made me feel like I wasted paper that I don't have when I could have wrote more to you mom. I know he is young but please express to him that being continuesly mad at someone for something that happened yesterday won't change today but forgiving makes tomorrow!!! I know you will be able to break it down to him for me. I love you.